Magical Musings
Connect with me!
  • Magical Musings

Cheap Chaos & Tantalizing Grace

1/13/2014

0 Comments

 
Picture













Trapped.  My mind a cave. 
Thoughts like floodwater, rushing in.

Heart racing, body tense, mind ablaze.
Paralyzed by my striving efforts.

Blatant silence. 
Prayers ricocheting off an invisible ceiling.

Desire to control and to know tantalizes and tempts. 
Darkness creeping in quietly beckons and sickly woos.

Questions, dreams, and ‘what ifs’ vie for attention.
Romancing the dark, I stay in a place of cheap chaos.

Running.  Running in my mind. 
This way.  That way.  Running into walls on all four sides. 

I’m a slave to my thoughts. 
Self-obsession the bolt to my self-made prison. 

A sinister dead end in every way.
Still I wrestle.

I lie down to rest, but I am awake. 
Running, rushing, thinking, grasping.

A pinprick of light. 
So small I nearly miss it.

Light.  Focus on the light.
Slowly, as slowly as ice melting in winter’s sun it grows.

My mind begins to clear.  Thoughts still. 
I breathe in the light, I breathe out the darkness.

My heart slows to a steady rhythm.  Peace stirs. 
I breathe in light, I breathe out darkness.

My body calms.  Striving energy turned to stillness charged with joy. 
I breathe in light, I breathe out darkness.

Another light.  Brighter.
I reach out to it.

A feeling of love sweeps through like a warm gust of wind.
Spiraling toward me and into my soul.

It steadily grows.  Stronger and stronger.
Wind so warm and strong. I close my eyes and breathe it in.

Love like a faithful companion, I know I am not alone.
Love that delights in me, I know I am seen and known.

The wind strengthens.  I can feel it stir inside.
I surrender to this wind.  Light now radiates within.

My mind awake with its reality.
My heart at rest in its certainty.

My body resonating in its presence.
My soul pierced with freedom.

Love.
Pure, sweet love.

Wrecked by grace through winds of mercy. 
Undone by love through purest light.

I am His and He is mine.


0 Comments
    Picture

    Esther

    I love storytelling, adventuring and making memories with my favorite people. 


    Inspiration

    Ann Voskamp
    Jen Hatmaker
    Kevin Kaiser
    Kisses From Katie
    Ransomed Heart
    Rebekah Lyons
    Shauna Niequist
    Ted Dekker
    Today's Letters  

    Archives

    July 2014
    April 2014
    February 2014
    January 2014
    December 2013
    November 2013
    October 2013
    September 2013
    February 2013
    November 2012
    May 2012
    December 2011
    October 2011
    June 2011
    April 2011
    February 2011
    January 2011
    December 2010
    November 2010
    October 2010
    August 2010
    July 2010
    June 2010

    Categories

    All
    Disney College Program
    Engagement Photos
    Links
    Multimedia
    Photography
    Quotes
    Wedding Photos
    Writings

    RSS Feed


Powered by Create your own unique website with customizable templates.